Monday, March 23, 2015

The Future of this Blog

My Friends,

I have been going through the Forty Weeks St. Ignatius meditations and it has helped me ask Christ to heal my many dysfunctions. I am in a state of joy now and the process continues. I have also realized that I no longer need to feel important or give unsolicited advice. This blog is no longer necessary to me.

I feel obligated to you, my readers, for putting up with me and following me for all these years. So I can't end it without asking all of you a few questions:

Do you want me to keep posting? Is it helping you?

Do you want this blog to change? How so?

Would you like to ask questions and have me answer?

Please pray and then reply.

Monday, February 9, 2015

What Matters

I am sorry this is a day late. Sometimes the lessons of the Forty Weeks program that I am in take a bit of time to produce a blog post. This lesson also is going to help answer a question from a friend of mine who is teaching teenagers in confirmation.

As you know from a few previous post’s of mine about this subject, I have been re-examining my past with an adult mind and correcting the misconceptions of my past. This and the question put by my friend; ‘How do I help these teenagers understand what the church and God is trying to do in their life?’

For the most part in my preadolescence years and in my high school years, and a little bit into adulthood, I wanted to MATTER. It seems like the world around me was telling me that the only reason I mattered was because I was of some use to them. In high school a teenager struggles to belong. He or she wants to feel like they matter, that they belong, that they are worth something.

All of society tells people in various ways that they only matter because there is something to gain from them. Your boss, your bank, your mortgage company and possibly a lot of your friends give you a subconscious message that you matter because they have something to gain from you.

Christ, His church, His priest and all of the servants of Christ state that you matter simply because you exist. Christ showed this on the cross.

The Holy Spirit has been trying to tell me, you, and everyone else this since we were born.

As a servant of God I must do a better job of letting everyone know that they matter to God and to me simply because they exist and I do not need or want anything from them. I fully believe that there is no more important message for teenagers. If they get nothing from all of the catechism except for the fact that God loves them unconditionally simply because of their existence, they will start to want to know more. If we as servants of Christ can portray to our fellow man this simple message, they will fall in love with Jesus Christ.

The major obstacle is the fact that this message is so unusual. Everything else in society tells people a different message. To most people the message of unconditional love is unexpected and they are not prepared to grasp the whole meaning. The result is that those delivering this message are misunderstood. The person receiving this message will look for how we are trying to use them.

That’s when we pray for patients, understanding, endurance, and perseverance.

Monday, January 26, 2015

Priority of my Prayers

I am still doing deep meditations so this will be short. In prayer I have been asking who or what are the priorities to pray for. Conversion of souls, the end of abortion, this nation, the hungry... There are so many people and issues to pray for. What is the most important?

The answer came to me this morning. These are and equal in importance: The people that I am assigned to. (God is helping them through me), The people assigned to help me (with God's help) and my conversion so that I might have Providence.

All the other causes and people need prayers and are important.

Sunday, January 18, 2015


I am in an awakening part of the healing process of the "Forty Weeks, An Ignation Path to Christ" so I don't have much this week. This week I did have an insight as to the purpose of all things.

I was meditating on my vices and habits that are attached to them when I asked: What is the purpose of anything and everything? Going beyond the simple reason: the table's purpose is to hold things.

Directly or indirectly, the purpose of everything is the conversion of souls to Love witch is God.

God or Love is also my purpose and He helps me fulfill that purpose by being my partner, my will, my future, my healer....

Saturday, January 10, 2015

Update on 40 weeks

The reason I have not posted in a while is because of some personal developments I in my progress with the "40 Weeks" workshop. Everyone has had events in their childhood that shape the way they think. The events that are bad create unhealthy behaviors based on fear and other things. They become barriers to the full potential of the future adult. Over the years I have been able to find some of mine and clean the wound, sort of speak, by looking at the event with an adult mind. When the wound is cleaned the behavior based on that event changes for the better. This is dysfunctionality.

Visualize a building with some rotten or twisted wood in the foundation and all the wood coming from those bad pieces being not good. If you replace the bad foundation wood with good wood, then all the wood connected to it automatically becomes good.

Visualize a computer program that is based on a little bit of bad information. All the information delivered from that program is a bid false. Correct the original flaw and all the other information it give out from that time forward is now true.

The reason I have not posted in a while is because this workshop is remodeling or me. Or, if you like the other visualization, correcting some original flaws in some of my programs.

I have been living with this broken house or flawed programs for my whole life. I have been unaware that I was this damaged. Now I have to get used to a better house or better data and when God's healing is completed, a new me. I am not used to my new behavior because it is new.

Monday, December 29, 2014

Fight Like a Child

I have been meditating on an unusual view of how to fight against my sinfulness and against those who would push their sinful habits upon me. Christ says to be child like. The humility of His birth, His death and His whole life demonstrate an aspect of childhood that we must imitate. The other aspects of preadolescences are obvious: complete trust in one’s parents and other learned adults, and inquisitive mind, a loving heart, the inability (or at least the unwillingness) to use another person for one’s own gain, and the frailness that by its nature makes a child humble.

To approach my own sinful habits with this frame of mind makes the fight easier. I have complete trust in God’s direction and I might ask questions to clarify that direction. I will also ask questions in order to see the worst case scenario and the best case scenario. The love in my “childlike heart” will push me to be selfless. The understanding that I have far less intelligence than God and far less understanding of anyone’s situation then God, keeps me dependent on His help in all my decisions and keeps me from judging others.

When someone tries to teach a child, the child asks a lot of questions. The child genuinely tries to understand what is being taught and why. When someone tells me that sex before marriage is okay because it will lead to a better marriage, I ask them how it does that. I ask them for statistics and resources to back it up. I do so with the tonal and voice inflections of an inquisitive child. I will then begin to ask questions that I already know the answer for in an effort to let them see for themselves the error in their way of thinking. This method can be applied to most secular arguments presented to me.

Have you ever marveled at a small child’s hug? Have you ever been envious of the way a small child plays? Small children do almost everything with a loving joy that oozes out of them. With God’s grace I can be like that. That is true evangelization. Others will want to be like that and will ask questions.